Long Time, No Post

Well, lets see, not much has happened but i will still try to make myself sound interesting :p


1) Girl who was ment to email me (the one that i talked to over the phone) finally called again... and well, the whole spark was gone.... sniff... guess she isn't the one, even though i already new she wasn't... but hey, it was interesting while it lasted.


2) My birthday organization is terrible, i have no idea who is even coming to my birthday, but i guess i will just have to pray that i have friends.


3) I still haven't started studying for my exam... MICHELLE!!! study with me.... actually i think you finish pretty soon...


4) Post a secret, although i thought it was really perfound and thoughtful when i first read it, it is now starting to depress me. The guy that recieves these, must be unbalanced because some people must send in terrible secrets.


5) God is really the only way, i have never found anything else ever that made sense.


6) Some guy on the chess server randomly messaged me, with a lot of abuse.... it was kinda funny, i didn't react how i use to.... instead, i tried to evangelise to him.... he didn't respond well to the gospel, he's met too many christians in his life that was stuck up. Real pitty that. I hope i'm not stuck up.


7) I love my life, even if i'm not always smiling.

What is going on~

It is so annoying, a week ago i was too busy to blog
and now my life is so boring there is nothing to blog about.


I wish my life had more drama. Preferable female drama, but when i do have drama, i feel so far from god, and then during the transition phase of drama- no drama i feel really close to god, and then life is too easy and i feel like i drift away. It's so sucky.


Thus the easiest way to solve this problem would be to look for trouble, no?

Crash, how do you view other people?

"Crash" I commend this movie to you. To me, would have to be one of the most moving, thought provoking and a movie that makes you look deep into your own soul and question you how you view other people, whether because of their actions, looks or gender.


I don't intend to give you a movie review, although i do say, i will put myself out on a limb and say, it will have a more life changing and life lasting effect then "return of the sith" or any other of the dodgy star wars series.


What did this movie make me think... well, it made me think that i am skum... although i figured that one out a long time ago. It made me really think of how i view other people because of their race and gender. I really have to say, i'm very dissapointed the way i view people because of their race and gender, and even their actions. This movie made me realise (although i should already know) that all people have problems, and they are all hurting. Whether they are a thug, an asian person, a cop or whatever, everyone is looking for something in this life. We are really the only people who have this something (christians).


You know, i am prejudice towards vietnamese people cause i got beaten up by some
I am prejudice towards malay people cause my ex- is going out with one
I am prejudice towards english people because i think they're racist (ironic, i know)
I am prejudic towards white people because of their ancestors actions, and i think they're stupid.
I am prejudic towards asian people, because they don't understand me at all.
I am prejudic towards females because of my own insecurities.


What did i learn today...... (apart from, i'm a jack ass and need gods grace, and a lot of it at that)


Everyone, no matter how messed up, ugly, good looking, black white, blue, yellow, short, tall, fat, skinny, dumb, smart, male or female.....


They need God, They need Love, They need Hope,


I once heard someone said "Bad things in the world happen, not because there are no good people, but it happens because good people sit by and do nothing"


I hope that if you watch this movie, that you will feel how i felt, and want to tell people about God... or even better, would be to look at yourself, and realise a lesson that is worth more than a movie ticket.


Only one life will past, only things of jesus will last.

I have no idea what to write about.

Well hey all, i don't really know what to write about, although i do want to give a testemony, but i think that can wait until thursday, it is, i think, a good testemony, but i'm not sure....

Anyway, hows things in my life.... easy, relaxed.... although i do want to sleep write now...

Hmm.. well, i do have one other thought, women go crazy when they are stressed, i think guys in general are much better under pressure, however generalised that might be. Well, i'm also listening to a sermon.


OH EVERYONE, ON JUNE 25TH 4PM - 8PM COME TO MY HOUSE FOR MY BIRTHDAY/LUNCH RELAX FROM EXAMS THINGLY.


Please tell others who don't read this, only those in ccm, cause not everyone from church is invited!

What Is The Romans Road To Salvation?

Hey Guys & Gals,

I'm not sure if you all know what is the Roman's road to salvation, or if you do, you probable don't have it memorised. IF you are unsure of your salvation or even what it means to be saved or the message behind christianity, if you have time, try to read through this slowly, it will benifit you alot. I think it is necessary that we should be ready to preach the gospel at all times (1 Timothy 4:2) , and i've realised in my life, that i really don't know how to tell someone, in a logical order, what christianity is actually about. So i pray, as i try to write down in a logical and simple way, the Roman roads for anyone who is reading this, that they, and i, are refreshed and have the willingness to reach out to those who are perishing, and tell them about the God who's love can change our lives forever. Amen.

p.s got this from (http://www.gotquestions.org/romans-road-salvation.html)



1) the first verse to the Roman road of salvation is Romans 3:23
"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."
- We have all sinned
- We have all done things displeasing to god
- There are none who are innocent
- (refer to Romans 3:10-18 and 1:21-32 for what sin looks like in our lives)



2) The second scripture is Romans 6:23 which teaches about the consequences of sin.
"For the wages of sin is death; but the free gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our lord."
- Punishment for sin, is death
- Not just physical, but eternal spiritual death too.



3) The third verse is where Romans 6:23 left off, "But the free gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our lord." Romans 5:8 declares,
"But God demonstrates His own love towards us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
- Christ died for us
- Jesus paid for our sins
- Jesus ressurection proves God's acceptence of Jesus' death as payment for our sins.



4) The fourth verse to salvation is Romans 10:9,
"That if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved."
- Because of Jesus' death, all we have to do is believe in him,
- Trusting His death as payment for our sins and we will be saved!!!
- Romans 10:13 reliterates "for everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved"
- Jesus paid the penalty of our sins and resues us from eternal death.
- Salvation and forgiveness of sin is available to anyone who trusts and believes in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour.



5) The final aspects of the Romans road to salvation is the results of salvation. Romans 5:1 is a wonderful message (especially useful with Catholics)
"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ."
-Through Jesus we can have a relationship of peace with God.
Romans 8:1 says:
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus."
- Because of Jesus death on our behalf, we will NEVER be condemned for our sins! AMEN!!



Finally we have this promise from God in Romans 8:38-39
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus or Lord! AMEN!@# amen is not in the verse, just to let you know :p

I hope you guys have found that as benificial to you, as it was for me to look it up and think about it. I hope your exam studies are going well, perhaps you can even evangelise to someone who looks like they are stressing out, perhaps god can use you in amazing ways even through this stressful time. God bless, take care, study hard, but don't forget about god!

p.s For those random people who read blogs, or someone who doesn't know christ, and you would like to accept Jesus Christ into your life and enjoy His blessing from until the end of eternity please pray this simple prayer:
(This is a way to declare to God that you are relying on Jesus Christ for your salvation, the words themselves will not save you!!! Only faith in Jesus Christ can provide salvation)
"God, I know that I have sinned against you and that i am deserving of punishment. But Jesus Christ took the punishment that I deserved so that through faith in Him I could be forgiven. I turn away from my sin and place my trust in You for salvation. Thankyou for Your wonderful grace and forgiveness - the gift of eternal life! Amen!!"

Welcome to the family! Ben~

3am

It's 3am in the morning, and i have no idea why i'm awake, i went to sleep at like 11pm which is somewhat late compared to what time i usually go to sleep. For some reason thinking about africans while i was trying to get to sleep. Have no idea why. Sttrraaannggee.
Anyway, that's that... back to work.

Spirit is thicker than blood.

Tonight, i saw someone i didn't know. The strange thing is, i have known them for 21 years of my life. They were there the first day i came back home, they were there when i fell over, they were there when i was a pain in the ass.

They looked after me, shared with me their morals, shared with me their hopes and dreams, they dreampt of making it big, seeing the world, marrying the perfect man, raising a perfect family.

Yet this world did not let them dream too long, before it crushed their all they dreampt of. It offered them simple pleasures, it offered them independence, it offered them drugs, it offered them pleasure.

A slow step, they took away, from a god they did not know. Another step and another, and soon it began to show. They no longer dreampt, but only wept, of a life that now can not be. Stuck with a husband, that does not treat them how god wanted it to be. They go through days after days, grumbling about their lot, cursing god, and asking him what they did wrong. They still pray, every night, but to a god that does not hear "Oh god that i have ignored, that i pushed out of my life, why are you never near? Oh please oh please i need you now, i need you to sell my house."

But i already know, how it would go, if the prayer was indeed answered. Like all others that they have prayed for, they shall just brush it off. With a "oh ben, its not god, but it was me, i sold my house with all my hard work, and with these hands"

But did not god give you those hands, and make the elements that made your house? Did god not give you life with a single breath, and did not god give you the gift of two beautiful sons, that he could have taken away, like the other ones before?

My heart is heavy, i know why, because i sit here and watch my family, slowly die. How they do not know, that what they put their hope in, will all turn to dust. Why don't they know, oh why can't they see, that god loves them and whats them back?

I wish i could reach out and say, god and jesus is the way. Perhaps on my special day, god will touch there hearts, and bring back his children that turned away.
God, please help them, please help me.

True Godly Love, when it matters most, what will shine?

This is an extract from a sermon i heard, i think it is unbelievable profound, and will cause you to look at yourself closely, and make you think of your relationship with god, and your future relationship with your wife. I hope this inspires you as much as it did me.

From the book "A spectical under God"

This is about Christopher Love a welsh preacher, when in 1651 a nervous english government exsecuted him, this is a letter from his wife, the day before he was exsecuted. His relationship between him and his wife, was a love that held christ above their love and everything else.


July 14th 1651

'Quote'

Before i write a word further, i beg you not to think that your wife is now writing but rather a friend. I hope you have freely given up your wife and your children to god who has said in Jeremiah 49:11 "Leave your fatherless children i will preserve them alive and let your widow trust in me" Your maker Christopher will be my husband and a father to your children.

Oh that the lord will keep you from having one troubled thought about your family. I desire freely to give you up to your fathers hands and not only to look at it as a crown of glory for you to die for christ but as a honour for me that i should have a husband to leave, for christ.

I dare not speak to you nor have a thought within my own heart of my unspeakable loss but wholly keep my eye fixed on your inexpressable and inconcievable gain. Your leaving your children, brothers and sisters, to go on to your lord jesus, your eldest brother. You leave your friends on this earth to go to the enjoyment of the saints and angels and the spirits of just men made perfect in glory.

You leave the earth for heaven for heaven and exchange a prison, for a palace and if earthly affection should begin to arise, Christopher i hope, that a spirit of grace thats within you will quell them. Knowing that all the things here are but dross in comparrison to those things that are above. I know you will keep your eye fixed on the hope of glory, which makes your feet trample on the loss of earth.

My dear, i know god has glory for you, but also for you, it. But i am persuaded that he will sweeten the way for you to come to the enjoyment of it. When your putting on your clothes tomorrow morning, oh think, I am now putting on my wedding garments to go be with my everlasting redeemer to be married. When the messenger of death comes to you, to take you to the block, let him not seem dreadful to you. But look at him as the messenger that brings you tidings of eternal life. When you climb the scaffold think, as you told me you would; "that you are climbing aboard you firey chariot to carry you to your fathers house." And when you lay down your precious head to recieve your fathers stroke, remember what you said to me, "Though my head shall be severed from my body, yet in that moment my soul will be united with my head, the lord Jesus Christ in heaven and though it might seem something bitter, that i am leaving this life sooner than i had wanted, Mary, let us consider that it is the decree and the will of our heavenly father and it will not be long before we shall enjoy one another in heaven again."

Let us comfort one another with these things, be comforted in my dear heart, it is but a little stroke and you shall be there. Where the weary shall be at rest and where the wicket shall ceace from troubling us. Remember you may eat dinner with the bitter herbs, but you shall have a sweet supper with Christ tomorrow night.

My dear, by what i write to you, I do not intend to teach you. For all these comforts i recieve from the lord by you teaching me. I will write no more nor ever trouble you further but commit you to the arms of god with whom you and i will forever be. Fare well my dear, i shall never see your face again until we both behold the face of lord Jesus at that great day.

Love. Mary~

'End Quote'

Quoted from sermon:

This was a relationship, so centered on the things of god, that when it really came to the crux of life, thats all that showed. GUYS this won't happen when you say "I do" or when you say "will you marry me", it won't happen next week. It must happen today, by becoming the man gods wants us to be. So the women that god puts in our life will be shepparded the way he wants us to sheppard them. That is the fruit of a godly mans love for a women, that she would encourage him before his death blow.

Genuine and biblical love lasts and works only in christ when shared between two people who love him and each other.


Ben: Be bold be strong, for the lord god is ALWAYS with you.

Only Because STEPH did it.

Interesting, and somewhat true.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

I'm scared to see this web site inferes that everyone is easy to get into bed.

Your #1 Love Type: ISFJ

The Nurturer In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long.For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner. Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie.However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues. Best matches: ESTP or ESFP

What's" Your Love Type?

I have emotional problems

Your EQ is

147 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

This ones interesting, but i think it's a little skude? (out of balance) because i couldn't be bothered to read all the answers to the questions

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

have no idea about this one, i think its wrong

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Exploring You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name.You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs. An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles.You show people how to question their models of the world.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Modifying Super logical and rational, you consider every fact available to you.You don't make rash decisions and are rarely moved by emotion. You prefer what's known and proven - to the new and untested.You tend to ground those around you and add stability.

What's" Your Thinking Style?

Secrets Of The Heart

I sit here, listening and watching and reading about a website called post secret. I have to say, everytime i read anything or watch the film clip of the site, my heart starts having such a great burden for people... it really hurts my heart.

It makes me think of all those people i know who don't know christ, it makes me think of myself and how stupid i am of how i use the gifts that god has given me, i think about how immature and selfish i am, how closed minded i am, how i'm so pathetically weak in myself, how unsure i am of myself sometimes, how i have to put up a front sometimes because i'm afraid of getting hurt. I think of how much more i want to be closer to god.

I am so glad god has saved me, i am so glad that there is more to this than this life. Everyone is hurting, everyone. The people closest to me, give such a great outside apperance, and yet are bleeding on the inside.

Why am i christian,
because it was the only thing that stopped my heart from bleeding,
it was the only thing that stopped me from wanting to kill myself,
it was the only thing that could heal my rejection,
it was the only thing that i could really feel loved,
it was the only thing that taught me how to love.

I hated life so much, i hated it because i saw it to be so pointless. I was king solomon, everything to me was vainity. I knew there was a god, but i thought he was some immature kid who enjoyed seeing what he made suffer. But i learnt about god, i learnt about jesus, i learnt that no matter how messed up i was, god loved me and jesus died for me, I was given back my hope in life, i was given life.

Post secret touches my heart so much, because i see myself in their words, but at the same time, i see how god wants to reach out to them, how much god wants just to bring them back under his arm.

If jesus didn't raise from the dead, and there was no ressurection, then we are to be pitied above all other men...





But he did rise.

Blessed are those who do not see, but believe.

Live and Learn continue

The continuation of bens random updates from a random book.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you miss them terribly after they die
-age 53

I've learned that you should never go to bed with an arguement unsettled
-age 73

I've learned that education,experience and memories are three things no one can take away from you
-age 67

I've learned that no matter how glamorous a job seems at first, after six months it is just another job
-age 42

I've learned that a mule (arse) dressed in a tuxedo is still a mule
-age 80

-I've learned that when traveling overseas, it's best to carry a good supply of toilet paper
-age 54

I've learned that if you want to get even with someone at camp, you rub their underwear in poison ivy
-age 11

I've learned that you have little chance of finding the caring, supportive husband of your dreams in a bar
-age 29

I've learned that generous people seldom have emotional and mental problems.
-age 51

I've learned that when i drop a slice of bread with jelly on it, it always lands jelly-side down
-age 33

I've learned that having a baby doesn't solve marital problems.
-age 24

I've learned that the best thing about groing older is now i don't feel the need to impress anyone
-age 79

I've learned that violence on television and in the movies is so graphic and extreme that it's numbing our children to pain and suffering in the real world
-age 59

I've learned that a good reputation is a person's greatest asset
-age 74

I've learned that everyone is attractive when they smile
-age 51

I've learned that if you laugh and drink soda pop at the same time, it will come out your nose
-age 7


I've learned that if you read something that's unitelligible gibberish, it was probable written by a lawyer
-age 48

I've learned that wherever i go, the world's worst drivers have followed me there. (for luke :D)
-age 29

-I've learned that I should make the little decisions with my head and big decission with my heart
-age 52

I've learned that when you read bedtime stories, kids really do notice if you use the same voice for the handsome prince that you used for the evil ogre the night before
-age 29

I've learned that days are long, but life is short
-age 88

I've learned that there are four ages of men: 1) when you believe in santa claus, 2) when you don't believe in santa claus, 3) when you are Santa claus, and 4) when you look like Santa claus
-age 51

I've learned that being a success at the office is not worth it if it means being a failure at home
-age 51

I've learned that when i eat fish sticks, they help me swim faster because they're fish
-age 7

I've learned that to love and be loved is the greatest joy in the world
-age 78

My favourite song. It's the lyrics that matter to a song, NOT the beat.

Shimmer, by Fuel

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label

She says she's ashamed
And she can take me for a while
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterfliess, reality escapes her

She says that love is for fools that fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

too far away for me to hold
too far away.... Guess I'll let it go